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Hi Noa,
I auditioned again today (it was in the same orchestra, the one where I have been freelancing almost fulltime for the last 4 years (well of course you have to leave out the two years of corona). I fell short of half a vote to pass to the second round although I really didn’t play well.
Your videos where helpful but I was not there yet mentally today.. I felt so frustrated to audition there again today… I had real trouble to get in the right zone…
I decided to quit auditioning after this season (I think it is good to have a clear ‘finish’ regardless of the outcome). I still want to give the best I can this season though and therefore it would be great to know if you have any ideas about how to stay inspired practicing the same piece over and over again… Or if you have any other thoughts about not getting worn out by this audition system… Or about how to keep up the other roles (partner, mother, …); this whole process takes so much energy from me and my envirenment that I am getting angry, and this state of mind is not helpful at all…
Thank you so much
Liesbeth